Tears silently fall into the pillow..
I just can't believe it, I say inwardly.
I thought everything would work out perfectly.
But it hadn't. My world seemed shattered.
What do you do under such circumstances? There are two choices: Go on with life or stay upset and be miserable and still not have any improvement in the situation.
Recently, I've been learning that I can't always be as independent as I'd like. Some of us prefer to take care of every detail ourselves. We falsely conclude it's better not to involve others in our lives because we don't want to bother them.
My fever continued to rise one night as one of my classmates came into the room to see how I was feeling. I said, "I'm doing okay". She knows me too well to believe that phrase. Nearing me, she immediately felt the heat radiating off by body. Checking my temperature, it was found to be 104 degrees. I insisted that I would be fine, and didn't want her to waste her study time caring for my needs. She insisted on staying. I was too weak to resist much.
As she bathed my forehead with a cool cloth she said these words, "I enjoy taking care of sick people. Don't deny me the right of doing what I enjoy."
I will always remember her kindness to me that night. I learned an important lesson: It's okay to let others help us. We'd like to think we can live on our own without anyone else's help. But living and loving is all about giving and receiving help from others. It just so happened, that the next week I was able to return the favor for one of my roommates who woke up sick during the night. I was glad to help her, and realized how my friend had felt about helping me.
Sometimes the truth hurts...
It can cut through our heart like a dart.
The truth for me most recently took the form of coming home in place of canvassing.
The reasons for this are not my of idea of logical.
However, God has a plan. I choose to trust Him.
Canvassing is my life. It feels strange to not be out there now knocking on doors at this very moment.
But my mission right now is right in bed resting.
This is God's plan for me today.
Tomorrow will take care of itself.
